I've walked at least 5kms with Egan every night this week, both the exercise and the consistent ramblings we offload on each other has made an immense improvement on my mood. Perhaps it's from a physiological sense or perhaps it's because I'm actually doing something and getting out of the house. Either way I'm sleeping better, I'm feeling better and hopefully my body will thank me.
Reading frequently has also helped, my mind is feeling much more satisfied focussing on something other than its own turmoil. I've created a "to read" shelf on my desk, which consists of both classics/dense books and modern mums-would-read-it-on-the-beach books.
I've decided to alternate between the two. So I am currently up to a book the latter category and I've picked Only in Naples, which seems to be equal parts unrealistic romantic ideals and glorified travel writings; which right now, is perfect.
As far as eating goes, I've got better. I'm eating healthier but not perfect. I am taking baby steps. Having your period and avoiding sweets is always a hard feet and I'm afraid I failed there. There is always next week right?
Next week is my last week of normal work hours before the two week holiday period where I am Coordinator for a handful of shifts and working long hours on the other. This should all add up to more money and more sense of purpose, two things that I certainly need at the moment.
On the topic of, well, actually doing things, I've got plans for the whole weekend!
Tonight I am going to Sydney to see an indie pop gig with Tyson and his friends in Newtown; I originally didn't want to go- I mean it's a long way and I don't have the money- but ty and his friends don't drink or do drugs, so that removes 90% of the spending and I think it will be good to he around people who have their life together, perhaps I'll be inspired to take up vigorous exercise or give up fats, or maybe his friends will inspire me to become board game fanatics and collect buttons (I'm being unfair now, but hey Tyson did say they play board games and one can only assume button collecting is the next best step). So that's tonight. I will either return after the gig or else I'll stay at James'. Not that I couldn't stay at their house but I dunno, I pee a lot during the night and that makes me nervous to stay somewhere I haven't been.
On Saturday night I am going to see the new Blair Witch Project film with Michelle and Steph from work. I said yes as a reflex and immediately regretted it- but actually now I am kind of looking forward to it. I like scary movies, and I *voice strained* Michelle and Steph, so I shouldn't complain. Besides having a sense of comradery at work is always a positive, and I might make new friends or open up new avenues.
Sunday is less set in stone, but Egan and I vaguely planned to walk Mt Tomaree on Sunday- or else do something equally athletic and adventury. However the weather is proving to be an issue so perhaps that plan will be squashed.
However I don't particularly mind because I'd like to have time to reorganise (control control control) my cupboards for spring time weather and do some meal planning/general weekday prep.
And there's my early morning positivity!
Signed,
Front and centre Amber
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